Changes.

I feel different lately-- i can't really say that it's a good thing. I feel like I can't handle life, I'm really not even dealing with that much but I feel like I have the whole world on my shoulders. I expect myself to be perfect and in my head I think everyone else expects me to be perfect too. It's quite stressful. This school year is a lot different from all the other years. I feel like I'm making the right decisions because I've learned a lot of lessons in my 17 years of life. I always tell myself that everything I've gone through has just made me a better, stronger person but in the heat of the moment it's really hard to actually believe that-- i feel like it's making me weaker. I don't mean to complain because I know there are loads of people out there whose lives are a million times worse then mine, I am thankful for the considerably easy life I lead. I have so many blessings in my life and I need to recognize that more. I'm sure I'll feel better in a couple days. I just gotta keep my chin up, look for the positive things.