The End

Mike and I officially ended our relationship today. That was hard. I honestly expected us to end up together in the end, but if that's not true then I know God has a better plan for me in store. Waiting will be vicious. I still feel like my world has burned down and I know it'll be even worse when I wake up in the morning and have to re-remember what happened but I will over come. After everything I've gone through in my life I can get through anything. Being strong and independent is in my genes. If I can sell my contract for housing then maybe I'll be able to move home and just transfer to UVU. I don't belong down here anymore. We all know I only moved here to be with Mike, and well... that's clearly pointless now. Maybe after I give him back all his stuff and burn memories I'll be able to grow up and move on, but for now all I feel like doing is crying. It doesn't seem real. Mike and I breaking up for good? What? Not us. Well... I guess Satan can get to anyone. It breaks my heart. I've never loved someone like I loved Mike. I guess everything that happened was for the best. I learned a lot and it brought me back the gospel. I'll move on eventually. I just need my grieving period.

ER Visit

This is a picture of my poor broken foot. It was makeovers gone horribly wrong. Me, a couple of my roommates, and the girls across the hall were doing makeovers and we had mask on our faces. We were going down to floor one with it on so we were running and people were coming so I jumped the last couple stairs and tripped and fell on my foot bad. I heard the bone snap. My lovely roommates and friends rushed me to the hospital while I impatiently waited for Mike to get to Price. I was shaking soo bad so it was hard to get the X-rays taken. They gave me medicine and wrapped my foot up. I now have to go see a special foot doctor so they can set my bones. I'm worried that they'll start to heal and then they'll have to re-break them. The medicine knocked me out cold last night and apparently I rambled on for quite some time, says Mike. I hate medicine. I'm gonna stick with Advil as long as it helps. We went hunting this last weekend and didn't get anything. The snow in the mountains made it very hard. Mike didn't hunt on Sunday and I'm so very proud of him for making that decision. I have the best boyfriend ever. He takes such good care of me and it boggles my mind. I don't know what I did to deserve him but I'm very lucky!

Cutest Future Nephew!

Here are some pictures of my adorable future nephews that I love to spend time with and take pictures of.
This first one is of Travis and Mike. This was the night that we went and played basketball. Travis is the oldest of all the grand kids; he'll be two in November.

This second picture is of Chandler; Travis little brother. He'll be one in January. He's in his cute little robe.

These last two are of Baby Dylan. He is my favorite. He is THE cutest baby ever! He is so happy. His mom calls me his girlfriend because he gets so happy whenever he sees me. I adore him.















Anyway... this weekend: interesting. Megan and I took seven hours to deep clean her kitchen- just the kitchen. It made me freaking tired. Other than that the weekend was kinda boring. Now I'm back at school and classes are normal. I have an english paper due on Wednesday that I keep procrastinating. I don't have my Excel class for the rest of the week- thank heavens! We're going camping/hunting this weekend and it's going to be COLD! I am excited though. Mike's bishop thinks that a goal to get married in the temple this Summer is a good idea so I hope we can make that happen!

Finally Fall!!

So my best friend is all grown up and married.







and we had quite the crazy weekend!



I'm so very proud of Chantel! She found an amazing guy who treats her right. Not quite as good as my boy but no one's perfect. (:Chantel and Ken's wedding was beautiful. I cried. I loved being a bridesmaid. I loved seeing Chantel so happy. Thank you Ken for handling Chantel right. Mike came and picked me up Tuesday night after the wedding and we came home. He was soo cute to me because he missed me. He always makes sure to take perfect care of me. The rest of that week went by so fast. My classes are getting harder. Only my Excel class really. It's kicking my butt. It literally gives me a headache and makes me want to cry. I got it up until now but now I call my mom every day and ask for help. She's amazing. She always helps me without complaining. Even when I need help with the three assignments I have to do in one day. Best mom ever? Yes! On Friday Mike and I went to the park and I made him take pictures with me.















He's such a good sport; he HATES pictures. He only gives into me sometimes. I love him. On Saturday we went up North to see Crystal in the hospital. Two days after she had baby Chloe she found out that she PPH (Primary Pulmonary Hypertension) I don't exactly know what it is but it's not good. Please pray for her. The Hurst family has a fundraiser going for her to help pay for all the treatments she's going to need. Miracles still do happen so please pray. Seth and Chloe need her.

This week is going by soo slow. Yesterday night we went to the elementary school and played PIG with Travis. Mike won. Let me tell you how much I liked that. I took pictures of that night but I'll put them up later. I'm only going to one class tomorrow and then it's Fall Break! Woo Hoo! On Saturday we're hopefully going to call in elk and just watch them. I'm stoked. Next weekend we're going camping/hunting. There's gonna be bathrooms!! (: Haha I'll get over that some day. I'm loving college and being closer to Mike. I do miss my family though. It's really kicked in this week. I have the best life ever. Lately I've felt so close to the Spirit. Nothing that would drive the Spirit away appeals to me at all. I hope I can keep this feeling with me at all times. I know the Church is true with my whole heart and soul. I can't imagine my life without the Gospel in it. Mom thank you for never giving up on me. I'm glad God never gave up on me either. I now know that no matter what you can be forgiven. Thank you to everyone who always believed in me. I'm glad that I finally opened my eyes. Next step: marry Michael Levi Hurst in the temple for time and all eternity.

Weekend Away

I get to go home this weekend and I'm very excited. We're leaving this small town tomorrow night after Mike gets off work. Saturday we're hopefully gonna go shopping so Mike can buy some new clothes and general conference is Saturday and Sunday and I'm really excited for that. I don't think I've ever been this excited for conference. I get to watch that with Mike and my family. Monday I'm going to Chantel's house so I can help her with any other forgotten wedding details and then the rehearsel dinner is that night. Then Tuesday night Chantel's getting married. I'm soo happy for her. She's marrying a great guy. I feel honored that she picked me as a bridesmaid. I'm excited to get away from school for awhile and just spend time with the people I love most. I'm coming home Tuesday night and then the routine will start back up again. I actually really do enjoy my classes. The homework is what gets to me. I don't think I'll ever be done writing papers.

Mike and I are doing really good. I feel like we're on the right path. We do our best to stay as close to the Lord as possible. Rifle season starts up here pretty soon and that's going to be interesting. Mike will get his deer. I'm just going along for the experience. Eventually I'll start hunting but for now I get excited enough just for Mike.

I wish I had signed up for the cosmetology program on time. I hate taking generals and I just want to get to the interesting stuff. I need to start looking harder for a job. There's a lot of things I SHOULD do. I need to go do them now. I know that I'm doing the right things in my life right now. I'm just waiting fot the Lord to tell me what's next.

College...

So last night my roommates and I decided to go running so we did that. Well we were running and all of a sudden it smelled like marijuana and we tried to figure out where it was coming from but we couldn't. Well after we finished running we went back to our apartment. Sue had been sneezing a lot and then her face got puffy and her eyes watery and she was obviously having an allergic reaction. Our conclusion is that Sue is allergic to marijuana. Good thing she doesn't smoke pot. So it was a good night and we all ended up going to bed earlier than we expected. Except Sue who stayed up till seven this morning because of the stupid people smoking pot. Anyway, school is good, my roommates are good. I'm going home again this weekend to be there for Chantel's wedding. I have the privledge of being a bridesmaid. Clarissa's wedding was amazing. Her and Braden are extremely cute together and I'm very happy for them. Also this weekend is general conference and I'm super excited for that. I went to Women's conference on Saturday and President Monson's talk was awesome. I am now trying harder to not be so judgmental. On Saturday I took this adorable picture of Mike and his nephew Travis.

Mike wanted to ride the bike with Travis. They're very cute. I'm excited to go home and see my family and Chantel. This year is alreday going by soo fast. I just really want fall to come. It's still too hot.

"If we spend all our time judging people we'll never have the time to love them."

- President Thomas S. Monson

I'm going home today and I'm excited and not at the same time. I am beyond excited to be going home to spend time with my family. I miss them a lot. I'll also be seeing Chantel tomorrow morning so we can go find he bridesmaid dresses needed so that'll be nice to spend some time with her. I'm not excited because I'm going to have a really hard time being away from Mike. I'm used to seeing him every day and now I get to go almost four days without him. I really shouldn't complain because of everything we used to go through.

My cousin Clarissa is getting married tomorrow and I am so excited for her. Her and Braden make a great couple and I'm glad they found each other. I'm going to one of my old young women's leader's baby shower on Saturday morning and then I'm going to Crystal's baby shower Saturday afternoon. Crystal is Seth's girlfriend and Seth is Mike's brother. Complicated but anyway... his weekend is going to be quite hectic but I'll manage. I also need to squeeze some homework in there somewhere.

Last night my Ipod managed to get EVERYTHING deleted off of it. I cried. Two years of my favorite music down the drain. Luckily my boyfriend is amazing and he's letting me take his laptop home with me so I can try to get some music back AND he sent his own Ipod with me too so I can have music. That boy treats me like a queen and sometimes I don't deserve it. Mike got his hair cut yesterday and he looks beyond amazing. I'm the luckiest girl in the world.

Labor Day weekend was quite interesting. Mike and I started it off by going hunting with Megan, Eric, and baby Dylan. Mike shot at a three point but he forgot his bow was shooting high so he BARELY missed it. Seeing Mike hunting made him quite the more attractive to me and I don't know why. Later on we saw a HUGE deer but we were too far away and it casually trotted off. Mike wasn't very happy with himself but I was proud of him. I actually liked hunting. I enjoy being out in the wild. The mountains can bring people closer to God than ever before and I love it. We'll be going hunting again when he rifle hunt starts. The next day Mike, Sam, Emily, Hannah, Daniel, Ailicia, Dustin, and I all went up the cabins for one night. Mike taught me how to shoot a gun and we practiced with BB guns. I started to get a little cocky and challenged Mike which wasn't the best idea because he has much more experience. We also played horseshoes which didn't last very long because sometimes I'm a poor sport. While we were there I peed in the woods for the first time and it wasn't as bad as I expected. I'm growing up (: I had a really good weekend and it was nice seeing Mike in his element.

School's been going well go far so we'll see how it goes from here. I really like most of my roommates and we've started bonding on a better level which is good. The girl's are really good and good examples for me. Sometimes we get a little crazy but that's just girls. I'm glad I got the chance to experience all this. Life just keeps on changing.

College

So... College. I don't know what I expected. I love spending more time with Mike even though I feel ungrateful now because even if I have to go an hour without him I complain. Obviously I still have growing up to do. I like most of my classes. My english professor seems like he wants to come across scary and intimidating but I suspect that under all that he's just a big softy. I'm not too into that class yet but I don't dread it either. My computer class is gonna suck. It's not the subject so much as I just don't feel like the material gets explained very well. I'm pretty good with computers but it's just gonna be... different. My mom's gonna have to teach me when I dont get what the teachers saying. My math class is SUPER easy. I guess that just shows how bad I did on the ACT math section. I'm back to learning addition and subtraction. I promise I don't need a 75 minute class period for me to do 20 elementary age math problems. I'm happy for the easy A though. I LOVE my interpersonal communications class. LOVE it! I love the teacher, I love the subject, and I even don't mind sitting there listening to my professor lecture for 75 minutes. I'm very excited for that class.

Living with roommates is different. I feel obligated to ask to do everything and it wasn't even that way when I lived at home. It was much easier living with my sister. I miss my family A LOT but I know this moving out thing is needed. I've already learned a lot so I can only imagine what's next. Labor Day is this Monday so I already get a break. I get to go home and see my family in a couple weeks, so I'm pretty happy with my life.

Changes in the Making

Well a ton has happened since I last wrote. I graduated, decided to go to college, and turned eighteen. Graduating wasn't as exciting as it seems. I always thought that after high school I'd be done with those types of classes but with the decison of college comes more math and english. I'm moving in one week and yes I am both excited and nervous. Girl's camp used to make me home sick for heaven's sakes, but that is why God invented the cell phone. I will be closer to Mike and that will strengthen our relationship too and I think our faith in the church will grow also as we are tested and we WILL pass all the tests we'll be given. College is a good idea. Moving out is a good idea. I will miss my family and friends from up here. I will miss malls. I'll miss busy streets (not really) but the small town life will be very different but I believe it will be good for me.

I turned eighteen on Wednesday and I don't feel different at all. I waited for that day since I was thirteen and now it's come and passed and SURPRISE I'm still the same old Danielle. Birthday's aren't as exciting as they were when I was ten or whatever but that could be because of my lack on enthusiasm. When I was asked if I wanted a party I said, "Why so I can deal with all the drama--no thanks!" I really do need to start being more social though instead of keeping to myself like I have been and I know that college and living with my roommates will help me with that. I'm excited for everything that's about to happen and I hope that I make all the right choices.

For all those who wonder Mike and I ARE still together, even though we've had some rough patches, and we hope to get married sometime during Summer 2011.

Snowflake

Awhile back I was having a bad day and Mike randomly asked me what my favorite animal was and I replied a snow tiger. Well about fifteen minutes later I get this picture...

Her name is Snowflake. Mike named her Edwardo at first (don't ask me why) but i quickly changed it. I didn't get her until yesterday when Mike surprised me and came up. I was only with him for an hour, but any time I get with him is the best. He's coming up again on Friday and I really can't wait. He's so amazing and he treats me like a queen, better than a queen really. When I'm at home I pretty much take Snowflake with me everywhere, as childish as that is, but she helps remind me of Mike.


Now I wanna touch on another subject: the weather. Ugh! I think Mother Nature has more personalities than ever. It's snowing one minute then bright and sunny the next. It's giving me a headache! But anyway, there's less than a month till I gradduate and I'm soo excited. I'm more than looking forward to summer. (:

Surprise!!

Well wayy too much has happened to go over but for starters... i cut my hair.

i like it on somedays but not usually. I miss my long white blonde hair so that's what i'm going back to.

I went down to see Mike's family this last weekend. On Saturday there was a baby shower for Megan and an anniversary party for Mike's parents. On Sunday there was a baby blessing for Mike's nephew, Chandler. I loved it! I love Mike's family so much-i feel like i fit in there which is a very good thing. Mike and I are doing amazing. I love him more than anything and can't wait to be married to him; which could happen within the next year and a half, cross your fingers!

There's only 36 days till graduation! I really can't believe it; i never thought this day would come. The time is coming for me to actually grow up. Life could get interesting; good though. (:

Perfect

So Mike came up this weekend and it was amazing, of course. He went to my cousin Tyler's baptism with me and met most of my family and he handled it very well, especially since my family is beyond chaotic. On Saturday night we watched Sleeping Beauty and he played with my hair while i laid on his lap. He actually did my hair and he was quite proud of his work:
On Sunday he went to church with me and while we were sitting there I just couldn't stop looking at him; he makes me so happy. I've been thinking about him a lot lately and what he means to me and I wrote this about him...



I didn't know it was possible to feel like this. I thought I'd loved people before but when I reached the point where I knew I loved Mike, I really knew I loved Mike. He makes me feel so amazing and beautiful, and when I'm with him nothing could possibly go wrong in the world. He brings a whole new meaning to the word forever. The thought of being without him completely knocks the air out of me. I'm not Danielle without Mike Hurst. He makes me want to be a better person, he makes me want to be the best I can be so I can feel like I deserve him more. He is the most amazing man ever. He's smart, funny, loving, sweet, caring, handsome, righteous, everything I could possibly want in my husband. No one can put a smile on my face like he can. One look at him and I'm the happiest person in the world. My favorite sound: Mike's voice. My favorite sight: Mike smiling. My favorite person: Mike. No words can describe how i feel about him. I am the luckiest person ever.

I'm so grateful for him. It was a good weekend.

Ahhh!!

I'm soooo tired of being sick. My nose is sore from blowing it and my head is bound to explode any minute. I never get sick and when I do it lasts for weeks. I'm having to miss school because of it, meaning I'm gonna have to get caught back up next week. Good things: school off tomorrow and Mike's coming up (: he'll help me get better. It's day two without mt dew and it's my mom's birthday so I'm gonna go clean the house and make her a cake. Happy Birthday Mom!! I love you!!

Snow

It's supposedly supposed to be fifty degrees tomorrow and yet it's snowing outside and it's not showing any sign of stopping--i'll never trust the weather man again. I'm so sick of snow and I'm soo ready for summer or i'll even take spring. Summer also means I'll be graduated and let me tell you; I have senioritis like I never thought possible. School has become one big blur of pointlessness and boring. I feel like I could be doing much better things with my life. I know I shouldn't be trying to gro up so fast but I can't help it; I'm ready for it. I know I'll look back on this year and think about how fast it went by, but as of right now I feel like it's dragging on forever. I'm trying to be positive and just live in the present, I suppose I should start working on that a little bit harder.

What a Weekend

Well Matt and Kara are now married. It was so amazing to watch my closest cousin and one of my best friends get married. They're perfect together and I know they'll be happy. I of course cried while it was going on, but I was very happy for them. I went and brought Mike to the wedding around eight, but by then most of my family was gone so he didn't really meet anyone new.
It was an amazing weekend though--I love anytime I get with that boy. On Saturday we went to Costa Vida and Baskin Robbins as our little Valentine's thing. He bought me a quart of my favorite ice cream and I ate it all in a 24 hour period; ouch--I'll be working that one off for the next little while.

We spent pretty much every day, all day together. He went home yesterday and that wasn't easy to deal with. It gets harder every time to let him go. I really just want to graduate so we can get married and I'll be able to spend every waking moment with him that I want to. Overall it was a good weekend and I can't wait to see Mike again.

Almost Friday!

It's finally thursday; i swear yesterday should have been thursday. This has honestly been the longest week of my life. Mike is coming up tomorrow and he'll be here till monday; I'm soo excited! It's Valentine's Day on sunday and he'll be here for it (: I just gotta get through the rest of today and tomorrow. And Matt and Kara are getting married tomorrow--wow! Well I'll take pictures and write all about my weekend next week.

Challenges.

This week has been an interesting one. It started on Saturday when I told my mom that I still had things I needed to talk to our bishop about. After I told my mom that, I decided that it was time to actually gather the courage to talk to my bishop. On Sunday, in Sunday school the lesson was on the Atonement and not procrastinating repentance--as if i needed any more reasons to do it; I think the Lord was giving me that final push. So I told my bishop that I needed to talk to him and I, of course, burst into tears so he told me to come see him right after church. I can promise you that going through with what I did was one of the most challenging, but yet relieving things I have ever done. I walked out of his office with this uplifted feeling in my chest and for the first time in a long time I had hope. Mike and I are both getting back on the right path and we will get married in the temple within the next couple years. My main goal right now is to continue through the repentance process till I'm finished and to help Mike through it also. He's struggling a lot right now and I need to be more patient and understanding with him. I love him more than anything and we can make it. I'll see him a week from tomorrow so I'm very excited for that.

Chandler Hurst

I know--he's adorable. He gets to leave the hospital on either Thursday or Friday. He is one of the cutest babies I have ever seen. I got to hold him and he just slept the whole time. Yesterday was an amazing day. I loved spending time with Mike and it made me feel rejuvenated. They came and got me around eleven and we went up to the hospital. It was Ailicia, Whitney, Teresea, Seth, Crystal, Alisha, Sam, Mike, and I. We sat in the waiting room most of the time while we all took turns going back to see the baby. I wish I could have gone with to watch Mike hold the baby but I guess we can't have everything. We were at the hospital till around five. At lunch time we were all sitting around eating and Seth went to put a cherry tomato in his mouth and he bit down on it--it went everywhere, and guess who was sitting across from him: me. Luckily it barely didn't get on me but it was hilarious. I'm pretty sure the people next to us thought we were crazy. I was with Mike until a little after seven. Next time I see him will be the weekend of Valentine's Day; I now feel like I can make it there. Chantel's most likely going to come get me after school and we'll hang out for a bit and I'm going sledding tonight--it's going to be a good day. I'm hoping these next two and a half weeks will go by extremely fast.

Yay!

I thought i wan't gonna be able to see Mike till February 12th but he's coming up late tonight and I get to miss school tomorrow to spend time with him. I'm so excited! This is such a stress reliever. My mom and I have recently realized that I have chronic depression--it runs in the family and I unluckily have it too. I've been struggling a lot lately with everything going on and I've been trying to deal with having this problem. On Friday night I went to the library and checked out many books on depression and how to deal with it. I'm trying to deal with it in a positive way--i refuse to get on medication for it. I can handle it on my own--i'll fight it off. But again, I'm very happy and excited to see Mike tomorrow. Mike, Ailicia, and I are going up to Primary Children's to see baby Chandler. I'll get pictures and update after tomorrow.

all the things missed.

Here's some pictures of Mike and I and of Christmas.

The 1st picture is two of my little brothers and I on Christmas morning--eating our traditional sugar cereal. The 2nd picture is my cousin Mike and I at my aunt Jill's house for Christmas Eve breakfast. The last two pictures are obviously of Mike and I. It'll be thirteen months on the 31st. I won't see him again until February 12th, but at least he'll be up here for Valentine's Day! I'm trying to teach myself to live in the present instead of always waiting for the next thing to happen, i think i'll be a happier person that way. Matt and Kara are getting married in less than a month and I'm freaking out a little bit about it. I'm so glad that they've ended up together! My cousin and one of my closest friends--I love it. She'll definitely fit in in our family. I'm excited for them and I can't wait for my turn. It's almost Friday and that is a gift in and of it's self. I'm gonna go home today, get in sweats, lay in bed, and watch the Notebook; my idea of a perfect afternoon.

Web Page Design

In my web design class our assignment was to make a blog and create a post--which i think is a pretty cool assignment. In this class we're gonna learn how to create our own web pages--we'll get to use all that crazy html codes. I'm pretty excited about the class so we'll see how it goes. I haven't written in a long time. I'm half way through my senior year and i feel like it's gonna last forever. I feel like i'm running out of time for everything. The earthquake in Haiti has affected me quite a bit. This morning my mom told me that in a 24 hour period Yellowstone had 200 earthquakes over the weekend. That's here in Utah and I'm scared. I'm worried about everything that's gonna start happening in the world. It makes me rethink so much about my life. There's also a lot of other little things on my mind. Me and Mike have been together for over a year--which is crazy to me. I love him so much and I can't wait to spend forever with him. His brother's wife just had their baby yesterday--Chandler Hurst. He's so cute. Megan's pregnant and is due either in May or June, i can't remember which. I'm very excited for all of them, pretty soon they'll be my nieces and nephews. I'm quite happy with how my life is right now--I've been getting everything back on track to how it should be. I'm so grateful for my family, especially my mom, i'm thankful for Mike and his family, and God. I can make it through anything.